Long weekend

This coming Monday is Labour Day and I get to enjoy an additional day at home. Till now, I really do not have much troubles and in 3 months time I am going to ORD. I suddenly find that time passes really slow in camp yet really fast at home. After Labour day, it is Vesak day on the following friday, another long weekend. Then it is 2 months plus before I clear my leave. I am really sick sometimes having to do so many things for the office yet what will I get in return. Sometimes, I feel I am really stupid but it is sort of a commitment towards my work. I also don't know jow to say it, perhaps I am just too timid at times and too indecisive. Alright, I end here.

2 Years in the Army

It has been exactly 2 years since I am in the army. If I serve only 2 years like what most of the other guys do, then I would have ORD. Quite sian but at least I am not a combatantso it doesn't matter that much. 4 more months and I can ORD, it seem like a long time but it is going to pass by really fast. All the things I would like to do I did it, it is just that my re-exam is not successful. All is not lost yet, at least I did enter University like I wish so it is not that bad. The past 2 years have been tumultuous and yet peaceful. I learn a lot of things and I thank those who helped me in one way and another. I said it as if I had ORD but I am still in service. Well, I am just scared that 4 months later, I would have change a lot and the intended thoughts have changed. Alright, I end here now.

Another week gone

This week has been realtively short, plus with most of my worries gone, it is quite relaxing. Yesterday, I just performed duty clerk, at first people might think I am unlucky but I felt lucky instead. I can clear my off on another day and settle my things. This week, two of my friends have ORD, how fast, it is going to be my turn soon. Though my NS life is not what I expect all this while, I have tried everything I want and most importantly, I benefited greatly from it. I know I am unlucky in a sense that I serve 4 months more than most people but threr are others who are worse off. Of course, if given a choice, I would like to have a combatant NS life as it is what I should do. However, I discovered that I am not really mentally fit before I enlist so I did not harm myself. Alright, I end here now.

My decision

Just came back from SIM with my mother, it has been a long time since I am so close to my mother. This week has been fun but I spent a lot of money, hagen dazs ice cream, KFC meal, Mos Burger meal and today the mee soto and nasi lemak plus the arcade card. Nevertheless, I do not regret it, at least like my mother say, I have friends, it is better than being left alone.
However, I will never go clubbing because it is really ex and my parents will not agree to it.

I really set my mind to accept the offer, though I am not really satisfied. I do not have any choice left, it is quite sad, just like when you like someone but the person do not like you. Perhaps I am exaggerating but I do feel that way. No point saying all these, the journey ahead is going to be tough, no longer can I think of myself as very smart. I have to work hard and not be so complacent anymore. Alright, i end here now.